9 years ago today...

We said goodbye to our mother. I remember so much of her last months with us. Mostly i remember her strength in the face of a battle she would eventually lose. She taught me how to be strong and for that I am eternally grateful to her for. The day she told me that she had liver cancer, she said that she would always be with me. I have never doubted it for a minute. She was with me on my wedding day, the day my father died and when Megan was sick in the PICU.

I am so lucky to have such wonderful guardian angels.

I miss and love you mom!!

Megan's first steps!!

This evening as i was making sure that Megan didn't do any permanent damage to Blair who was sitting in the baby papasan, the most wonderful thing happened...Megan took her first steps!! i can't believe i was actually there to see it either. She was standing by the papasan and all of a sudden she was no longer holding on and then she shuffled her feet (2 little steps) and was moving. As soon as it happened, it was over with and she was back to crawling. i immediately called nick to tell him, it was that exciting. later on in the evening she stood again on her own. i don't think it will be too long and she will be walking on her own. I can't wait for the day to come, yet i am nervous because then my baby will no longer be my baby. she will be a full fledged toddler ready to take on the world.

I thought...

that your brain cells were supposed to "regenerate" after you had a baby. I am obviously still waiting for that to happen. Case in point - About a week or so after i had Blair, a friend and I went to Target to go shopping. The lady who was checking us out asked me what the name of my baby was and how old. I totally spaced and for the life of me i could not remember her name. Thank God for Lin who was kind enough to tell the lady Blair's name. Another example - I ordered announcements for Blair's arrival. I thought we bought enough. Not the case at all. I went online and ordered another set of 24 pictures thinking that was going to be enough. WRONG!!! I had to go back online again and order ANOTHER set of 24. I hope for the sake of everyone out there that i get my brain cells back before something terrible happens like I forget my own name.